Would you rather listen to Shoshi tell her story?
You’ll find her video testimonial below!
Shoshi was suffering from: Trauma, Depression, Anxiety, Bi-Polar Disorder, Crippling Insomnia
Below Shoshi tells about her experience.
When I found Michal and her program I was at my rock bottom. I was struggling with severe insomnia, depression, anxiety, PTSD, and bi-polar since my 20s.
When I was 9 years old I went through a traumatic car crash that killed my father instantly. It was a big life event that changed my life in a lot of ways. I grew up in the shadow of that trauma and it was never addressed. When I was in my teens I started struggling with depression, anxiety, and bi-polar symptoms. At a young age, I started psychiatric medication. That didn’t go so well.
I was on them for 18 years and never found that they helped me but I stayed on them because that’s just what you do. I was hoping that maybe they’d be the answer, yet I always wondered why I was taking these when I knew I had unresolved trauma. I knew in the back of my mind it didn’t make sense to “just take meds”.
I got married at a young age, had 4 children, and then at age 34 I had a midlife existential crisis.
I didn’t want to take meds forever and knew they weren’t helping me. I knew I needed something different. Something had to change. My kids were growing up and I felt like I didn’t want to feel this way for the rest of my life. I had tried almost every medication out there. You name it I had tried it from bi-polar and antipsychotic meds to Ritalin. It wasn’t feeling right anymore.
I came across information about changing my diet. I removed gluten, dairy, sugar, and other foods. I had some really positive results from it. I really felt different and knew there was something to this “health-stuff.” I was feeling better so I weaned off meds, thinking I didn’t need them anymore.
However, my whole existence and life was surrounded by meds after 18 years, so after a couple of months I started crashing like a computer shutting down. The diet wasn’t helping me anymore and it didn’t make sense.
I realized mainstream medicine wasn’t really doing it for me, so I needed to find the right alternative help.
I then tried so many different programs and supplements and became heavily involved in the wellness world to learn about all these “natural things”. I researched everything, learned about every possible diet, went to school to study integrative nutrition, and went into the holistic world to try to get better.
Things just got progressively worse.
The depression came back. It was so thick and so black I can’t even put it into words. My anxiety was over the roof. I started having severe insomnia and PTSD symptoms. I was deathly afraid to sleep and didn’t get a full night’s sleep for over a year and a half. I had to go back on meds because I had no idea what to do. Diets and supplements stopped working. Nothing was working. They held me in place, but I knew they were just covering everything up again and I knew that’s not what I wanted. My marriage was falling apart because of it. My children were struggling tremendously. I had to leave home for a couple of months into a psych ward.
It was such torture living this way. It was really, really difficult. It’s painful thinking back to it. That’s how hard it was.
That’s when I found Michal and her program.
Thank God, it’s almost like night and day. Every day is more healing. Today my insomnia is so much better, healing and resolving. Depression and anxiety are much lower and so much better. When I’m stressed, they’ll pop up. But I will catch myself in those tendencies and then realize there’s something for me to do.
I literally thought I had a mental illness.
I was diagnosed with bi-polar 2 and others, yet I do not have bi-polar symptoms. Those symptoms were expressed that way because of how I was experiencing my life.
I am in a much better place. I am healing. I am getting stronger every day.
Depression was something I struggled with for over 2 decades and I feel like I’m finally becoming free of it. I’m freeing myself of it and that’s the beautiful thing. I’m realizing I’m not a victim to my moods and going to those dark places which I very easily used to go into.
Michal taught me that with my symptoms that there’s always something to look at. That’s the work. I catch myself when I’m triggered and find the root cause. My program was getting those tools. It is such a relief and is so empowering because there is a root cause. Symptoms don’t just happen randomly. Every symptom whether mental, physical, or emotional has a root cause. My program addressed all three. You don’t really find that anywhere.
Michal really knew what she was talking about from a medical perspective in a professional sense and also from the emotional, therapeutic aspect, and knowing about trauma. It was so comprehensive. I had never seen such a thing before in my life. And that’s what had me do the program.
As I’ve been healing over time, my marriage is mirroring that fact to me and so are my kids. It’s also so much better. It’s incredible. We are also healing as a couple and growing. I’m so thankful.
It’s a journey and a beautiful process. My husband is so grateful for Michal and her team. He really helped me jump into this program. He knew that this was going to be really helpful. He sensed it. Even though we’ve had some really hard times, we are not there anymore. We are in a much better place.
Not having depression and insomnia is exciting, but one of the most exciting things is being able to eat food again with my family and friends and not feel like it’s going to kill me.
I was off gluten and dairy for 3 ½ years. I wouldn’t touch it because I reacted to it with increased symptoms (insomnia, depression, anxiety, and constipation). I would touch bread and it would keep me up all night. It was scary for me because that’s what I saw.
In doing this work and program, I’ve been able to reintroduce those foods and “magically” I can handle them. I’ve gotten back to eating every food now. Cereal and milk, ice cream, crackers, bread and butter. I literally thought I would not be eating these foods for the rest of my life. It’s incredible! It’s really amazing. I am so thankful.
I loved the wellness food and making all those vegetable dishes and smoothies, but I also love this food, so it’s really great to have a variety of all the different things and be able to enjoy life and go out to eat and not feel like I’m going to have symptoms if I accidentally eat the “soy sauce”.
There’s so much hope.
I have been in some really hopeless places. (I forgot to mention I’ve been suicidal). The list goes on. I was in a really difficult place. It was terrifying at times. It was scary. So I want anybody who’s out there suffering with PTSD or any “labels” to know there is so much hope and there is so much to do. Don’t give up hope. Don’t think you’re the case that’s not going to heal. The truth is, I thought I was.
When I signed up for the program, I didn’t know that much about it. It sounded amazing. Michal knew what she was talking about. She’s one of the first people who understood the wellness world and psychiatric medications. Most people do not. I had done so much research on this. It was crazy how much I taught myself. Finding someone who knew that and said, “you’re right and everything you went through and your symptoms make sense, and here’s why…” Then, she told me “there’s still hope”.
I thought I had done everything. I love that what she gave me, taught me, and opened me up to was the fact that essentially it’s about inner work and resolving beliefs and trauma.
There’s so much hope. There really is.
I would say to people to also really trust Michal. That’s what I did because I was at my rock bottom. I wouldn’t have signed up if I didn’t think it was for me. It took me about 6 weeks to really get into it because I was so stuck.
Trust Michal. Look into it. She offers a free consult /breakthrough call, so why not? See if the program can help. You have nothing to lose.
Depression and anxiety are painful. Every symptom and illness is painful. Because depression and anxiety are mental illnesses, they are experienced on a very emotional level. They are torture. They can keep us back from literally living the life we want. The mental illness keeps you totally frozen and so stuck. It’s a really painful place to be. I would tell everyone, there is so much hope and so much to do. If you’re reading this, reach out because there is so much that can be done.
It’s so worth it.